That's where you are ..

The paper was still blank, tip of the pencil needle sharp, did I hit the writers block ?
Ironic though, in search of some inspiration I closed my eyes and ceased all my thoughts.

Travelling faster than speed of light, within an instant it seemed like I've crossed dimensions of space and time, where was I ?  
No darkness, no light, no earth, no skies, nothing, not even I.
In the vastness of nothing, what is it that I'm looking for ?

When with a sudden silent burst of bright light, nothing turned into infinite.
Witnessing this cosmic play of stars being born,
Gravity pulling everything within and tearing everything apart,
Cosmic inflation expanding universe as if it would never stop.

With infinite probabilities of multiverses being born,
With billions of galaxies to choose from, 

With countless number of stars,
I would always look for that bright blue dot, that's my home, that's where you are.

No easy feat

This is no easy feat :)

Knowing myself, like no one else does,
     I know how difficult I can be,
         three years with me, hence, calls for a celebration indeed.
But knowing you, like no one else does,
               I know you would want nothing for yourself.

So, I thought and I thought ..
Every morning your smile brings me the warmth of sunshine,
looking in your eyes I fall for you every time,
all the small little sacrifices came rushing to my mind,
and I was humbled and lost ..

A promise of eternal togetherness is all I can give, for a fool that I am, it might take me forever to be a man you deserve for life.

 

Wedding vows

Wedding vows and promises made, in presence of holy fire, with witness as gods and goddesses,

we took our vows and traveled back in time, recollecting most of the mantras from morning prayer we used to recite.

Amidst all the people, amidst all the noise, she spoke to me through her eyes,

I could hear the silence, I could hear that sound,

I looked at my lovely bride, all elegant, all poise,

if every feeling could be expressed in words, vows would just be infinite.

Vedic chants were echoing loud, with panditji cracking a joke every then and now,

questioning me about the rituals being followed, how, but with a smile, I got all the answers through her eyes.  

As I look back, I know not, if I'm worthy enough,

I know not, if wealth lies in austerity,

I know not, if love transcends eternity,

For all I know, you're everything that I hoped for,

your kindness, your simplicity, your caring embrace,

With you, I fight, I smile, I pray,

seven is just a number, vows are just a cliche,

Blessed I'm to have you in my life, you are my strength, my charming bride.

Wandering

Wandering in the woods, I thought to myself, 

if only love is real shouldn't fairy tales be a part of  our lives ?

Basking in the sun, still, waiting for sunshine,
every morning longing for that caring embrace like an infant clutching his mother's fingers tight,
they see the world in her eyes, they feel the happiness in her smile,
the flowers and leaves whisper to me,        
not the water, not the sun, it’s your love that gives them life.

Magic that love is, it holds all the answers within,
love is in the warmth of sunshine,
love is in that innocent smile,
love is in the words of compassion,
love is everywhere, if only you wander.   

.. after all

Years ahead of her contemporaries, blessed with powers we mortals merely dream of,
After all, too low they build who build beneath the stars.

Struggling to find that elusive half an hour, when its time for morning walk, 
Whilst we barely break into sweat, at the speed of light she jogs,
After all, how on earth can you lose so much weight, you gotta slow down time and go for a cosmic walk.

Planning for that one vacation a midst all the work can be hard,
Having fun is serious matter, for that perfect picture postcard.
But whoever needs an itinerary, when you have teleportation powers.
After all, how on earth can you be in Delhi, Gurgaon, Dalhaousie and Jaipur at the zeroth hour. 

But nestled amongst these superhuman powers is your sincerity and compassion, qualities that makes world a better place, after all.

Happy Birthday Sis .. from Bhabs and Bhai

.. first birthday

A couple of months now and we had met several times,
had many a long conversations while driving about all aspects of life,
with ample time at our disposal, you know, traffic in Delhi never disappoints.

Winters were knocking at the door, sedate sun spreading the warmth of sunshine,
tired as if, napping now, after all the shrieking, giggling and tickling, like a mischievous child.
It was a beautiful morning, we went to get the blessings at bangla sahib.

.. and protocol ensued, monotonous of sorts,
we parked the car, removed our shoes, washed our hands, covered the head,
and ready to climb the stairs when I suddenly stopped.

You looked at me, a bit apprehensive, maybe surprised,
I said a silent prayer in my heart and held your hand for the first time.
Nothing could've expressed it better, we looked at each other and smiled.
It was your first birthday, frozen in time. 

A couple of years now and I'm wearing the same smile,
just an ordinary man, I know, I've fallen short many a times,
I won't make any promises though, words won't suffice,  just this once look into my eyes,
you will see the reason that gives me life.

Reflection

From heavens up above, descending gracefully the first drop of rain,
holding the reflection of entire earth in its tiny little frame.

As gravity brings them closer, an apprehension it maintains,
but when it touches down,
earth flourishes, sprouts,
absorbs it within her loving embrace,
of all things beautiful and divine, this tiny little drop of rain is giver of life.
As the skies open up and pours down with all its might, every drop of rain paints similar magical sight.

Surreal as it might be, the same magic happens to me,
whenever in your beautiful eyes, I see a reflection of me.

A second without you ..

Enamoured by bright red rose right outside our window,
wearing a charming smile,
swaying in the wind,
it seems to a musical note.

Like a saintly soul dancing with devotion,
sunshine makes it glow.

It was so endearing, yet someone's presence I sought,
I missed holding hands,
I missed that smile,
I missed those eyes,
that make me fall in love every single time.

Lost in sounds of silence,  it seemed like forever had passed,
when, with an epiphany of sorts,  I realized,
just one of many infinitely long seconds without you, it was.

Ring the BEL

Those long tiring days, those early wake up calls, 

cutting, chopping, cooking in the battleground kitchen where time has declared a war.

Always amongst elite group of passengers, catching the bus on last boarding call :)

Back to war front kitchen after hectic office hours, 

where lentils and greens await an assault.

And just when you think the battle is won, late night sitcoms come heavily armed.

After years of hard work the day has finally come, 

when you say goodbye to BEL, your accomplice in this marathon run.

Could I understand how you must feel, millions of things, coming back, all at once,

memories flashing through your mind, your first day, your first boss, your first meal,

your first friend, your first task and all else that seemingly you forgot. 

As you step out for the last time and swipe your card, with many a friends, with many a celebrations, 

you leave your sweat, you leave a piece of your heart.

And here, now, after 38 years, I see the sacrifices, I see the love, I see my mother, I'm proud of.

With folded hands ..

With folded hands, I prayed to God, why you give me so much love when I don't deserve it all. God said, my child, loving you is not an option, guide you I shall.