Friday, 24 June, around 8 pm, I'm returning back from office and driving through Moti Bagh, right most lane, not very fast when suddenly screeching sound of wheels against the road hit my ears and my brain send signals@speed of light to my feet. I press hard on my brakes. Too late though. Bang ! Crash ! Thud ! Silence.
A couple of seconds pass. Silence.
Electrical impulses from brain start again. Deja Vu. Just a month before, it happened to me. No one was at fault, then and now. All hit the brakes, then and now. All cars got bruised, then and now. My car lands up in garage, then and now. Insurance agent whining, then and now.
Looking at the positive side though, no one got hurt, then and now, except my car which is still recuperating in ICU of the bodyshop.
Not everything was same though. Then, I was just worried. Worried to get my car back in shape. Now I was feeling a cacophony of emotions. Anger, surprise, disbelief, anxiousness, to an extent guilt. But why? I was driving carefully, sticking to my lane, not too fast, following the rules .... but still. I felt as though I had flunked the same exam twice even after studying hard. But why? Maybe I should have studied harder.
I had my answers. That night I thanked god and slept.
A couple of seconds pass. Silence.
Electrical impulses from brain start again. Deja Vu. Just a month before, it happened to me. No one was at fault, then and now. All hit the brakes, then and now. All cars got bruised, then and now. My car lands up in garage, then and now. Insurance agent whining, then and now.
Looking at the positive side though, no one got hurt, then and now, except my car which is still recuperating in ICU of the bodyshop.
Not everything was same though. Then, I was just worried. Worried to get my car back in shape. Now I was feeling a cacophony of emotions. Anger, surprise, disbelief, anxiousness, to an extent guilt. But why? I was driving carefully, sticking to my lane, not too fast, following the rules .... but still. I felt as though I had flunked the same exam twice even after studying hard. But why? Maybe I should have studied harder.
I had my answers. That night I thanked god and slept.
2 comments:
Every "participant" in a crash claims that he/she was driving carefully ;)
There are some questions which are better kept unanswered. Sometimes, it is out of our control. We can only try our best. If still it happens, what can we do. But then your last lines answered it in most accurate way....
"I had my answers. That night I thanked god and slept."
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